FINALIST FOR THE 2019 CHROMACON OPEN ILLUSTRATION AWARD
I pictured this painting during a dark time in my live. I was under a cloud of oppressive feelings as while walking down to the train station, I thought of Depression is an immense weight, a heaviness that can't be easily shaken off, muffling the rest of the world. It affects so many of us.
My motivation for this painting is believing this: we human beings can find hope in community, in faith, in life, in facing our internal battles together and bringing our darkness to the light where it is laid bare and unarmed.
A personal painting based on experiences during the Level 4 Covid-19 lockdown in New Zealand, where we were locked at home in small groups (bubbles). Thoughts from the time of creation:
It's been a challenging five weeks of Level 4 lockdown here in New Lynn, Auckland, New Zealand for our little family, and for myself personally. I feel unusually low on energy, just coping, yet physically I have done so little. While I have been working harder than I have ever done for my fulltime job (graphic design), and probably doing the best work I have ever done in that area, I have in the same way been feeling a little distant from those around me. What seems to hold my mind is often bad news, and worry.
But. But If I stop, if I look, if I let myself be washed by his presence, I find it easier to zoom out. To be thankful. To see I can never be self-sufficient, and I was never made to be.
To know that its God's joy, his delight, to provide for us all that we (really) need. "The Lord be exalted, who delights in the well-being of his servant.” Psalm 35:27
“Anxiety is fear in slow motion.” This painting is part of my series about mental health. Anxiety, being pulled in all directions, is a destabilising state of being.
There is a quote I relate to below, take a moment to consider.
Because we are vulnerable and mortal, pain and anxiety are an integral part of human existence. We must have something to set against the suffering that is intrinsic to Being. We must have the meaning inherent in a profound system of value or the horror of existence rapidly becomes paramount. Then, nihilism beckons, with its hopelessness and despair. - JP
FINALIST FOR THE 2015 CHROMACON OPEN ILLUSTRATION AWARD
This painting was developed from an original ink drawing. It came out of a sketch from a sketchbook of mine, and I had thought of developing the composition in a kind of comic style as I had done for other pieces in the past, and ending up with a relatively flat drawing. However as the colouring and value stage began I began to realise that the elements and lighting deserved a more realistic / painterly treatment.
It was a very challenging piece for me to complete, and I would say I definitely learned a lot about digital painting and lighting. I wanted to bring unity to the piece though colour. IN retrospect I would have developed the piece with an undertone first, to make the process easier to bring to the finish line, with colour unity.
The characters are cartoony and the perspective quite warped. I plan to develop this painterly cartoon style, and have a few influences for what I enjoy looking at myself, from artists such as Dice Tsutsumi, Ryan Lang, and Alexandre Diboine who I admire a lot.
"The painting has a life of its own.” ~ Jackson Pollock
Some of my other paintings of various subjects and ideas.